Eeejaima's Ramblings

i found something out yesterday which has really irritated me..

i have to go on training for the students unions new officers this weekend which i've been really looking forward to. i love all of the su people - they tend to be passionate, friendly, active, well informed etc etc. working for the union tends to require these personality traits as you have to be dedicated to the cause of improving the lives of the students within the union and also making them more socially aware. god knows how i got in but then standing unopposed must have helped.

anyway to get back to the point ... ive just discovered an old friend of mine will be coming on the trip as well, despite the fact she is not an elected officer of the union - she has a place as a co-chair of a committee repoting to one of the officers and myself. and im not overly pleased with the prospect pf spending a weekend in close confines with her.

this girl was a very close friend of mine for the first term of this year at uni, she was a fresher and new to the area and i kind of took her slightly under my wing. my mums always telling me off as i have a habit of collecting 'lame ducks' - people who most other people would not associate themselves with but who seem to gravitate towards me. what can i say i like helping people.

at first we got on really well, and dont get me wrong she is a nice girl, but... as there always is there is a but.

we hung around a lot together, anmd she started to get a reputation amongst our friendship group of being a bit easy, well to be honest a lot of people were calling her a slut. i started to distance myself slightly as i was aware this reputation was being to rub of on me, and having spoken to her about it she seemed to be not only a bit blase about the gossip about her, but worse, she seemed to be slightly proud of the fact. no offence but this is not a reputation i desire - athough i am incredibly open about sex and my experiences with my friends, and am a proud and open bisexual, i do not want to be consider as the village bike.

so after christmas we did not spend a lot of time together, the friendship cooled off as these things do, and it all seemed fine.

until....

a new person joined the debating society of uni which we are both members of. he was lovely and we hit it off right away - hes like the big brother i never had.

on the second time of meeting this man she decides to go back to his for a drink or two and then end up having sex, at her insistence. its at this point she turns around and tells him that i would now try to pursue him as 'i always want the men she has'. having never been interested in any man she has had any kind of relations with - i find this slightly insulting, the idea that i would like someone solely because they had slept with her. i only discovered this after a couple of weeks, and i only found out through the man involved.

she got turned down by him after this incident when she asked him out. he explained he didnt feel the same way and was afraid that they had made a mistake, he handled it like a true gentleman.

he and myself continued to get on very well after the incident, yet he had withdrawn somewhat from me. when asked what was wrong, he countered with asking how i felt with him. to my response of i loved him and thought he was amazing his face blanched. he asked me to explain what i meant, to which i informed him i loved him like a brother to his great relief. we are now very close, to the extent where everyone things we are either related or dating, to which we often respond with the former - in my eyes he is my 'big brother'.

and now after all of this i have to spend a weekend with her, knowing that she has being saying things about me to other people, of which i am worried i only know the tip of the iceberg. i dont want to confront her about it... but at the same time i really dont want to be put in a position where i feel i may say something - this may happen if we have to work in such close proximity. i know the other officer think we are still close friends, i just hope we dont end up thrown together for all the bits and bobs

i might have to take the president to one side and have a little word....

when did we all revert back to being such children??? why is there all of this he said you said business? why cant people just come out in the open with what they think?

im so not into bitchy backstabbing... this is going to be a fun weekend.

Eeej x

so today the regional support team came to the store..... in particular our regional support officer

that was fun...

not.

the woman insists on calling everyone chickadee.. now i know i use sweetie and hunny all the time - normally friends. but to call someone youve met for like 5 minutes in a professional capacity chickadee??? suffice to say i did not take kindly to this...

im normally quite outgoing - to the extent my friends tell me off for chatting to people in shops, queues etc. with her? silence -shes annoying patronising condescending etc etc - now how, i ask myself, has she actually managed to get to a manager level?

she does have the occassional goods point - she is good at sales for example - but its borderline rude and agressive. shes good at keeping the paperwork all neat and tidy - but is incredibly pedantic about it when checking its been done correctly - you do not want to know the reaction if even a tiny tick is in the wrong place...

her voice though probably is her worst feature - heavily accented and loud enough to be heard for miles - what makes this worse is her desire to talk about her digestive system in detail and great length at a volume normally reserved for heavy metal gigs... honestly... yep it is that bad...

the only amusement to be had from her visit is her incredible similarity - in appearence at least to the 80's pop star sonia... well if she put on about 6stone... im by no means slim but she makes even my curviness look small....

but anyway ...

just had to let off some steam - espech as still trying to avoid the smokes (not going very well lol)

Eeej x

ok so i don't intend on telling people about this, but it seems kind of rude to start something like a blog etc without introducing yourself first. its kind of like starting a movie or a novel without introducing the characters - but then again i guess most actions movies manage to get by without any kind of characterisation - but then there are no car crashes here to distract you... well except for my love life - but that as they say is another story.

i seem to have a habit now of not using capital letters. its not a good habit - but at work where we use specialised keyboard and its too much effort to fiddle with the capitals - also theres no exclamation mark - thats going to get annoying - i love exclamation marks.

but anyway im 21 a student and part time travel money advisor - which is like a hundred times more dull then it sounds. i study psychology which i adore, people fascinate me - we are all so .... odd. i also spend way too much time volunteering with the student union - i get a bit passionate about things like that - its important that everyone has the chance to get their say - especcially when we pay over £3000 a year in tuition fees alone - but maybe i should leave the political ramblings for another time.

spare time is spent seeing friends, dancing, going to gigs, baking, watching movies, listening to music - the normal stuff i guess for a person my age.

so why am i here? as ive said before work is not the most interesting of places to be. theyve banned msn, facebook etc - pretty much everything thats fun - which is annoying when you are sat there all day. sure i can do advertising stuff etc - but its a bit hard to do when theres noone to advertise to - and yes the store can get very quiet.

its also about time i quit smoking, im hoping this may be able to distract me from my boredom ciggie breaks - if im sat here typing a message to the great unknown then at least im not destroying my lungs. mind you i say im going to quit every holiday - its not happened yet. the problem i think mainly lies with the fact i actually enjoy smoking - i find it relaxing - and with the smoking ban its actually managed to make a previously very antisocial habit increasingly social... espech if its raining.

so i think that should prob do as an introduction at least... rest assured i shall probably be back later to ramble on - i wonder how long this blog thing will last - it will prob be like my diets - couple of weeks and then they just seem to disappear...

Eeej x